#StayWoke, #StaySane, #STFU...
“While y’all out here worried about Drake and Meek Mill, (enter tragic event) is happening! Don’t be distracted! #StayWoke”
Nah, b… I’m woke. How about you #STFU. Look, I’m that person. I’m that person that the semi-racist guy from my high school HATES. He sees me on social media and he’s forced to see a plethora of vivacious afros and dark skin with words like “Black is beautiful” plastered across the photograph. He hates to see my post coming because the thought of an educated black women makes him sick-- yea, that guy. I’m always the one looking into the cases, reading and watching video evidence. I actually spent an embarrassing amount of time reading the transcript from the Mike Brown case… we won’t even get into it.
With all that being said, bitch, I’m woke! And just because I’m woke that doesn’t mean that I can’t talk about anything other than police brutality, systematic racism, or the latest bullshit that Congress has made “the law of the land”. Have you ever taken a moment to stop and think that maybe we are a complex people. A people that can be powerful and lead a protest and still take the time to laugh at a corny line from a Drake song? My interest in things outside of racism, sexism, classism, etc., does not negate my ability to #StayWoke. In fact, it shows that I have a healthy mental state and I can focus on more than one issue at a time.
What bothers me the most is the fact that the people that are saying these things-- they’re black! As a black person, you have to be aware that we are beautiful complex people. We can debate about a weak ass rap beef as well as focus on the tragic situations that are occurring. Have you been tricked into thinking that you deserve nothing but to be frustrated, stressed, saddened, and flustered? No, you deserve a break. You are allowed time to catch your breath and read a comic or watch a YouTube video about nothing at all. Even Martin Luther King Jr. had fun. He proves that you can indeed “fight the power” and still allocate time to play catch in the yard with your children or in our cases spend thirty minutes to an hour reading pointless blogs about the latest hair trends. It’s okay to have fun. Enjoying the good in life shouldn’t be frowned upon. Stop making our people feel bad for taking a much need break from the depressing thought of being gunned down in the street and engage in some mind numbing gossip.
Honestly, I personally HAVE to take the time to come up for air for my mental health. I find myself irate with white people after spending too much time on the issues. I have to go into my office and smile at the privileged white women that have no clue about my internal struggle at the moment. To make matters worse, they don’t know and they don’t even care to know. It pains me to go in there and have that gut feeling that they call me a nigger when they go home and smile and be pleasant. I can’t read certain things before I got to work. It makes me angry and I would hate to take it out on an innocent bystander. Albeit, I literally can’t stand the thought of some of the bitches at my job, I can’t justify me randomly going off on those hoes because they asked me to write a report on economic development in the United States. I’ve learned to understand, appreciate, and utilize “mental health” days. I need those days to clear my head and make sure I don’t walk into my office and flip every single desk and tell my boss to kiss my black ass. As a community, we are fragile. We are grieving. We are hurt. We are afraid. We need time to heal. However that healing looks-- if it comes in the form of a good ol’ hip hop beef/battle, so be it!
Moral of the story, mind yo’ business and make sure you’re woke! Don’t come at me like I’m not doing my job. You’re so worried about me switching tabs to look at necolebitchie.com that you’re fumbling on the play. Stop supporting the idea of angry, depressed blacks. We deserve a time to laugh and love. We are humans. Humans are complex and have many layers.
Now, excuse me while I go and read this blog post about nothing at all simply because I can.
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